And then we came to the end!

Term officially ended on Friday. On Thursday my writing students turned in their final portfolios, and on Wednesday I held my last session of office hours. On Wednesday I also collected my marking for two sections of Writing Texts, assembled a hodge-podge of other paper-based work of varying degrees of urgency, and made the mistake of glancing at all of my email inboxes. So when my last session of office hours ended and I realised that I was officially done with the class planning and human interaction part of teaching for the school year I was massively relieved. And then I walked out into the cool spring evening with several weeks' worth of work in my backpack and realised that if I did not assert my individuality in some small way right that moment I might literally cease to exist.

So I walked back to my flat, fetched my computer cord, and peaced out of Norwich.

I'm not good at spontaneous - as might be apparent from the fact that I still plan all of my classes instead of "going with the groove" the way my colleagues tell me I should. I need to plan ahead, especially when traveling, because when I don't Bad Things Happen (see: getting stuck in Cambridge until ± 3 AM on a teaching day because I didn't double check the train schedule and assumed that everything would be all right). But I managed to get one of the last trains to Reading, and I made it back to my spouse-thing's house. And in my haste to leave the City of Literature I seem to have left my brain behind, because I have done absolutely nothing worth reporting since collapsing on our doorstep at two in the morning.

Even looking at the essays I have to mark I can't help being a little excited at the prospect of teaching again in the Fall - which might be indicative of the fact that someone at some point somehow managed to re-educate me into accepting my lot in life. And a quick flick through my inbox makes it look like I'll be getting around quite a bit later this year in my capacity as Writer.

Of course, I may read through these final papers and decide to set myself up as an evil overlord. They say it's good for one to keep one's options open.

A most eventful week

Things I have learned this week: The Women's Prize has the best parties, Cambridge is lovely, publishing is full of awesome women, and Ali Smith is more lovely than words can describe. Ok, I knew the last one already, but it always bears repeating.

Monday evening the Women's Prize shortlist was announced, which means I got to skibble down to one of the Serpentine Galleries in London and spend the evening drinking champagne and Baileys, eating the best canapés I've ever encountered, and geeking out about books with some of the most well spoken and intelligent women I've ever encountered. I am somewhat relieved that The Shore didn't make the shortlist (though I blame Philip for jinxing it), as I found out that evening that shortlistees are going to be involved in what sounds like a terrifying number of public events for horrifyingly large numbers of audience members. Considering that I still hyperventilate and freeze in front of my classroom of thirteen students, that could only have ended messily.

Coming back from London I made a shocking error in judgement with regards to trains, and wound up waiting in Cambridge for the 2 AM National Express to Norwich to stop. Which makes a good story, but is something I'm going to try to avoid doing again.

On Saturday I got to go back to Cambridge by National Express, thankfully not at 2 AM, to be handy for the debut writer panel run by Ali Smith at the Cambridge Lit Festival on Sunday morning. The other two ladies were Sarah Bannan, whose novel Weightless reminded me of both The Virgin Suicides (in a very good way) and the parts of my childhood I haven't had the courage to write about yet, and Claire Lowdon, whose novel Left of the Bang is tight and suspenseful in a way that demands you keep reading as quick as you can while simultaneously demanding that you put it down for a moment to give your heart a rest. We had the chance to chat with each other in the green room ahead of the event, and I really hope that I run into both of them again. 

And today I return to real life, and the final week of classes. I'm a bit sad that I probably won't be teaching this batch of students again, somewhat relieved that I'll be getting my life back. There are more things that I want to do than can possibly be done over this summer - which thankfully hasn't booked up yet, though I already know that I'm going to be pretending to be a professional at the Edinburgh Festival on the 21st of August. Perhaps this summer will actually go to plan, for once.

Winding down

I get resentful every December because all of my non university affiliated friends are celebrating the end of their year. I would get even more resentful right about this time every year as well, because this is when my year is reaching its frantic crescendo and all anyone else seems able to think about is barbecues, except the pollen is so bad that I can't bring myself to care about anything. And I'm not entirely sure that anyone else can either. The offices are empty, administrators aren't answering their phones, my supervisors only exist in theory and everyone I run into on campus looks as though they're either coming off of or about to embark on a multi-day opiate bender. It is a weird time of year, made weirder still by the three-week-long Easter break that is proving nearly impossible to come back from. I went to Reading, but my brain appears to have hitchhiked to the moon, and it is refusing to either return or to focus on anything besides long distance hikes that I haven't gotten to take, varieties of cider I haven't gotten to drink, and inane conversations that I haven't gotten to engage in.

If I'm this much of a useless blobfish, I'm kinda worried about what kind of shape my students are going to be in. Theoretically, they'll be giving me final projects to mark soon, except the prompts for the projects haven't been given out, and the course convenors aren't answering my messages. My professors in undergrad used to vanish to a parallel dimension around this time of year too, so I suppose it might be a universal thing.

This spring, as it happens, marks the halfway point of the enrolment phase of the PhD. I celebrated by trying to convince Dave to let me quit and become a ditch digger. He said no. So I keep promising myself that if I can get through the end of term and PPD training in June and Annual Review without cracking and setting something on fire, I'm going to spend all of July sitting in the summer house at the bottom of Dave's garden, smoking hookah like Carroll's caterpillar and finishing the novel I'm about halfway through drafting, so that Henry will have something to tell me to go redo in the fall.

Front Row

So it turns out that the interview aired on March 31st, a few days before I thought it would - which is how life pretty typically happens to me. It can be found at BBC Radio 4, though I don't know how long it'll stay there. I can promise that at least 80% of what I say is the absolute truth. 

I was a bit surprised at how little of my accent seems to remain, and a bit dismayed at how young I sound. It's still a bit of a shock that my students listen to me at all, let alone make notes like they actually believe what I'm saying. 

So far most of the reviews and responses I've gotten about the book have been positive. Which is not, generally speaking, the sort of response that one receives, much less with a book that is so consistently grim. So I'm going to keep my head down and wait for the other shoe to fall.